Having reached that season in motherhood when your first has become an independent young adult living away from home (and my camera lens), I knew this time together on vacation was all the more special. Keeping that in mind, I decided to use my medium format film camera to capture a portrait that would stand apart from the hundreds taken during our week in California.
Feeling inspired after visiting the art museum and with only four frames left, I ignored the rules about not taking portraits in bright sunlight (ignored my family waiting for me) and asked her to pause. She is a month shy of twenty-two.
Several months passed before I sent my film to the lab. I think waiting a while makes receiving the scans all the more special. “Special” is the recurring theme for my choosing film. Upon receiving the scans I found the combination of black and white film and the square format lend a sense of timelessness, contrary to the reality of motherhood.